My Testimony

Raised a catholic, going to saturday class or psr as catholics call it, but the same as bible study learning as much as i could about god and jesus. This decision was chosen for me by my parents not by me. Well as I got older, and things of the world started setting in and started making my own decisions I lost god along the way and started living for myself. The decisions was making were definately not going on the right path and at a later age in life, after graduating high school I had already lost a dear friend of mine to drugs and was not sure how to handle it. Realizing i never made any decisions about my future i felt like i was loosing control of my life and became bulimic. Well we all know that most people don't recover from this, but i was able to stop and quit like it never even happened and that was because of god giving me strength to walk away. Still living for myself and not realizing that he had a given me a chance to change i kept walking down my own path and it led to a rape that was suppose to be a friend of mine. After that i hid out at my house for a while didn't really talk to many people, cause i didn't really trust many people after that except for afew of my girlfriends. Well at this point most people usually get involved in drugs and alcohol but not me not even a therapist, or psychologist. I pretty much recovered on my own in my own time, still not realizing that it was because of god and his love for me that i stayed strong and was still able to smile. Which brings me to the here and now, and that is when i met this guy was dating him for a while and found out i was pregnant and not married i knew it was wrong and i was determined to make it right and that to me was turning to god and to get forgiveness for my sin. So i started going back to the catholic church made my confirmation, and when my daughter was born had her baptized. The father left us, and i found out i was pregnant with my second child. Now a single mom of two kids struggling to take care of all of us making less than minimum wage, pretty much poverty level in 2006 a few months after my son was born i met this most amazing guy, who is now still my boyfriend who is a christian. He invited me to visit the church he does ministry music at every sunday, so i said ok i will come. Ever since that first sunday i kept going every sunday. I met alot of wonderful completely blessed people who truely loved god and i wanted that for me and for my kids. So working at Wendy's i met a lady who is christian and back on January 13th i was asking her questions. She started answering them, but i got too busy so she said she was going to call me that night. Well before she even called me my boyfriend called me and god usedhim to witness me get saved! And that very next day god used me to answer a family's prayer at church, a girl who is another author on this page her husband had lost his job and god's presence entered my apartment that day and it was so strong and real he told me to call them to tell her husband about a job i knew about and that he was going to get it. Sure enough he has that job and is still there. I'm so blessed to have found the church that i am now a member at, cause through all of our pastors teachings i discovered that god loves me unconditionally, and that no matter what he is there for me, and now i talk to him just like i would if i were talking to one of my girlfriends. I am so blessed to know that he is my father, and that he is always watching out for me, me a sinner and all i had to do is ask for his forgiveness, to the one who gave me life. There is nothing more wonderful!